Worn

Hence the reason the blog has been somewhat silent. This is me right now and I thought I should record it, cause who wouldn't want to see how crappy they looked like 5 years from now. Frizzy unfixed hair, dark circled eyes, a broke out face, pale, a wardrobe of scrubs and an overall tired face. That's me right now. Worn. I wish it wasn't the case. Sometimes I wish I could say man this sucks, I look like crap and I feel like crap and I hate all of it. But maybe just maybe part of me is a masochist. Because yes..there are parts of my day that I'd like to erase but those are usually the routine monotonous parts. The crazy parts, the delivery parts, the OR parts, the scary parts, the learning parts....oddly enough I like them. Despite the fact that I'm constantly on the verge of passing out, or sleeping while standing, and that I'm obviously neglecting myself at least in the maintenance department (did you see my awful eyebrows?) I'm still enjoying what I'm doing. Missing sleep, free time, and my husband but still enjoying the torture :) I guess thats a small victory huh? happy hump-day.